Thursday, April 25, 2019

I feel His arms around me

I hope this will be true for me 

My name is Lori Ann and I am an alcoholic. 

This blog is going to be my unofficial recovery journal. 

Part of recovery is being honest. 

Being honest might be harder for me than not drinking. 

I think I have been a low level (and sometimes high level) liar most of my life. 

I am the kind of liar that even lies to myself. 

Even the word "honest" makes me uncomfortable. 

You know what? I am going to push myself. 

Every post will have at least ONE honest thought/confession/memory. 

Something that I kind of cringe while writing. 

Hmmm...where to begin??

Ugh...now I remember why I hate honesty. 

So many bad memories and decisions are flooding into my mind right now and I just want to SHUT THEM OUT.

Maybe I need to start smaller. 

For today, starting this blog has got to be good enough. 

Today, I am starting this blog and I am not drinking. 

I am not alone. 

God is with me. 

I just need to do the next right thing.  

Lori Ann

(16 days sober)